The Crack Whore, Part I

"crack whore" in German

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I expect going back to the environment where you got addicted will prove difficult. I don't believe in the efficacy of prayer, so all I can say is good luck, attend your meetings, and stay strong. And I completely understand your desire to be with someone who you know understands where you are coming from. I think I'll be okay, most of the people I used with at college have graduated by now, I'll be living in a sober environment, and working a job as well.

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There has been alot to read. But I just wanted to tell you Congrats. And I know the hardships of this all. My sister has been addicted to crack for years and probably done all the same crazy things you have. She has two kids both of which are in legal custody with my parents. She's been a prostitute.

She gone to jail. All she cares about is getting that next fix. She comes home from time to time.

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And we've all learned to hide everything. Nothing Is off limits to her. What I want to ask you is can you give me. Or anyone in similar situations to use on how to overcome this addiction. Anyway I can talk to her. Make her see what she is doing is wrong.

It's scary the mood swings she goes through when she has had her crack, wants money for crack, or been on a binge. She's been doing this for about 15 years now. When I was using, I didn't give a shit about anyone or anything except my next high. The only way my head got clear enough to realize I wasn't happy was when I got put into mandatory rehab for 60 days. About 30 days in, I started to be glad that I was going to be there for another month because I was finally starting to want it.

Legitimate question, and I mean no disrespect at all, but what is like to have sex sober vs high on crack? Not that I'm going to try, so I thought I would ask.

Also follow up question: If you used prostitution to get money for crack or to just get crack during I never wanted to have sex with my "boyfriend" because I had been fucking all day. Apparently guys like to get their dicks sucked while taking a hit though.

It will be a good reference for others wanting to kick the lifestyle but can't. It was actually a really nice place. I was there for 60 days, we lived in these apartments and then would take a van over to the "school" M-F for groups and such. The groups were things like - lectures on the science of addiction, core group where we talked about feelings, yoga and tai-chi, and some other things that changed day to day. We had to go to either NA or AA meetings every night - they brought them into our residence, but once we were there for a while we could get a pass to go to an outside meeting.

I did about 40 days in residential, which is the program I described above, and then 20 days in IOP in which we still lived on "campus" but instead of going over to the school we walked across the street to this house where we had 3 hours of group, then we were supposed to be out looking for jobs for a few hours. I met a lot of great people in treatment, the staff was great, the meetings were awesome, the people I met are still friends today. I'm sorry that the people below have absolutely no concept of what it is like to deal with drug abuse problems.

If they had any idea, they would realize how foolish and incoherent they sound. I struggled with oxycontin for a very long time, but I'm 1 year 1 month clean today and ain't never looking back. I wish you the best of luck, I know how hard it is. But if you are at days, and have cut out your connections like you say, then there is nothing stopping you. I was addicted to powder cocaine and one night when I couldn't find any, a friend of mine said he could find the rock instead so I tried it. Completely different ballgame from the powder.

I'm like - is this even physically possible? I ended up walking out on him after like 2 minutes and let him keep his money. I have always wondered where all the crack heads went and now you pop up. Seriously though, good for you getting off that shit. I do wonder why crack doesn't seem to be anywhere as prevalent as it was "back in the day". Why do you think that is; did you have trouble getting it at any point? It really is prevalent in certain areas. It actually is where I live now, but I no longer have the desire to use. Dealers on every corner. I just had the sad realization that crack just got swept further into the hood and never went anywhere.

Also, that I don't go to the hood much anymore, though I'm not too sad about that. I remember trying crack once and having to tell myself "never do this shit again". That fifteen minute high ends and your first thought is "more". How many Johns would you service on an average day? What's the highest number you serviced on a single day? I just always kept it going. Fuck a guy, smoke some crack, fuck another guy, smoke more crack, etc.

If you sought out the drug, was there any particular reason you did so, other than a craving? Had you suffered some sort of disappointment? I had been clean for like 75 days, 60 of which were spent in rehab. I contacted a guy I had met in treatment who got kicked out because we were sort of dating in there for like a week and I hadn't been able to get in touch with him.

So finally one day he picked up the phone and we met up, he was staying a motel. He said he was a week and a half clean or so.

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We hung out for a few days, did some sober activities, but then I just had a really bad obsession to use. I tried talking to people about it, and praying about it, but it didn't go away. I talked to this guy and he said "Don't get high tonight, if you still want to tomorrow, we'll get high tomorrow.

When all the drugs were gone, and all the money was gone - my head was saying "okay, let's find someone to fuck for more drugs. We went to the meeting and I talked to my supports about what happened and I realized that I really don't want to go back to that life, where all you live for is the next hit. I've always wondered, when people stop using a certain drugs, why do they also stop using alcohol? Alcohol is a drug.

It alters your mind and mood and lowers your inhibitions. Also for a lot of addicts, once they have had a few drinks, they want their drug of choice again. This is what happened to my boyfriend a few weeks ago. He went to the bar intending to have a few drinks and go down to the beach. An hour later he was smoking crack and had his phone stolen by dealers. One was when a guy picked me up in his car. He knew my name and that I smoked crack and about fucking two dealers for a couple bags.

This creeped the fuck out of me. I really didn't feel comfortable with him and I didn't want to do it. He made me do it without a condom. I ended up crying and he offered to take me to a baseball game. It was just weird and I felt really uncomfortable with the situation and wanted to get out of there. Although he didn't hurt me, I didn't feel safe. His inner monologue went something like this. Just invite her to that baseball game! I don't think they cared what I was going to spend the money on. If they specifically asked if I used drugs I always said no, even though - come on - of course I did.

Since you've stopped, have you ever been in a situation where someone is smoking it in your presence? Do you think you're clean enough to handle that? No, I don't hang around with addicts who are still using. My boyfriend relapsed a few weeks ago and I think if he had asked me to get high with him, I might have done it. Not yet, I can't even watch Intervention when someone is smoking crack.

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In real life, I wouldn't be able to handle it. I would have to leave, or relapse. I'm 4 years off the stuff, but when I sit there and imagine it, I still feel compelled and if it was within reach, I don't think I'd be able to resist Actually I just had a dream the other night where I was getting so frustrated with my halfway house that I was about ready to get high over it, and someone asked me if I wanted to and I said "I really don't. I have no desire to use, no desire to get high.

I still have dreams where I'm holding a chunk, but for one reason or another cannot smoke it people, circumstance, lack of pipe, whatever. I wake up frustrated but then reality kicks in and I'm fine. I used to have dreams like that. I remember one where the whole dream was spent trying to find a place to sit down and smoke. And then the lighter kept blowing out. Was it at all connected to a habit with weed? I was living in a dorm and met people through smoking weed with them, got invited to some parties where people were doing coke and ended up trying it there for the first time.

Then I found out my bf at the time and some of his friends did it from time to time so we began using coke together. I have no idea why I started abusing Adderall. When it got prescribed to me, I was taking it as prescribed for maybe a week before I decided to start crushing and snorting it. You started abusing aderall because you are an addict, it wasnt crack or aderall or cannabis but getting fucked up, getting fucked up is nice and not everyone becoms an addict but you have that in you, you sound like an all or nothing person.

I probably wouldn't do this - it would take too long. I preferred to get a guy off really quick so I could just take the money and get high. Will you ever touch drugs again? How confident are you that you will never do crack again ever in your life? I do not plan on it. Now that I'm clean, it certainly is depressing to think about. But I know that I can't change my past, I can only do things differently in the future.

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Of course, and its incredibly great that you are: By the sounds of it, you have a very supportive family which i'm sure your very grateful for too. I was always supposed to get money in advance. On one memorable occasion, I agreed to do it and get the money after. My "boyfriend" who was sort of like a pimp but not officially, butted in and threatened him and when the guy didn't pay, my "bf" beat him up and stole his phone so we at least got some crack out of the whole situation.

One time this guy wanted me to stay with him for like an hour and a half, he was really drunk, he paid me and then he was throwing up in the bathroom so I just took the money and ran. I regretted that I didn't rob him blind before I left, because I had seen where he took the money from to pay me. Yeah, marijuana is a drug in that it is mood and mind altering. I don't think it's as detrimental to one's health as most other drugs including nicotine and alcohol. When I was just a stoner I wrote a speech on the medical benefits of marijuana for a public speaking class.

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Become a Redditor and subscribe to one of thousands of communities. Want to add to the discussion? Have you repaired ties with your family? FB me, we should catch up. Did you contract any sexually transmitted infections during your career as a prostitute? Yes, I got Trich, but it was treated with antibiotics.

I always use pills as a term for opiates and painkillers in general. That was my first and only time in rehab. Crack brought me down extremely fast. I wish you and your family the best. I just slept a lot for a few days after my last use. Craziest request - hard to say, I'll come back to this one.

Emily, is that you? I don't think that many redditors have an ex to worry about. Did you ever have any Johns threaten or attack you? What's your opinion on legal prostitution?

I have been robbed a few times by johns I think legal prostitution is a good idea because it would drive prices up and keep the girls from the fear of being arrested. How many times did you have to take a stranger's cock in your ass? I don't count, but I didn't do anal that much.

What was your pre-game warm up routine when it was requested? Thanks for the luck: Dibs on the "on your knees" joke. Since I got clean, I have realized that a good orgasm is better than a good hit of crack. I see what you did there. Laugh and learn, how to lose fat with no excercise, how to pick up women, when the child Jesus hated people, where The Secret went wrong and much more. View us on Instagram. Add to my favourites.

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