A-B-USED ME
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My dad is dying. How can I not have a dad? What will I do if I get into trouble? What will mom do without him?
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How am I going to handle a loss that close? After all, in my youth, I learned that strong emotions are dangerous. Oh, god, I am so angry! He was horrible to me; he messed up my entire life — made every goddamn day of my life a thousand times more difficult than it should ever need to be. He made me afraid of everything and everyone, and that fear has held me back from my real potential. And how dare he make me feel scared and sad at the thought of him.
My Father Abused Me, And Now He's Dying
To talk politics instead of feelings and ignore the fact that any closeness between us was an illusion. Now I feel sorry for him, for this man who never said sorry to me. Family gatherings are even stranger now. Which feelings am I pretending to have, and which not?
What you endured was inhumane and cruel, says Annalisa Barbieri. People do make complaints about historical childhood abuse and get. Spousal abuse does not always mean bruises and broken bones. For some victims, it means denial of money and hidden bank accounts.
I need to pretend to be concerned but not scared, sad but not angry about it, sensitive but not like I notice that he looks like he might be dying, and definitely not like I hate myself for pretending to feel and for actually feeling anything at all. Shortly after the diagnosis, he would bring it up suddenly in family conversations, like he was crying out for attention.
None of us cried at the news. We sat in stunned silence. Perhaps like me, my siblings were wrestling with a confusing mix of emotions that had to be met with numbness to cope.
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Did that silence hurt him? Did he have any clue that his abuse stunted our ability to feel anything at all?
Now I wonder about the future. When the cancer catches up to him, will I find that I needed answers from him all along? Will I find the courage to ask him if he knew he abused us, and why he never begged for our forgiveness? Did he think that he deserved our tears, our emotion, our love? Did he look into himself, look over his life, and under the eyes of his god, did it dawn on him that three lives he was responsible for might have been better off if he had died a long time ago?
I know that this is true and that whatever I feel is valid. Like the doctor tells my dad, I have to take it one day at a time.
He had told me that he wanted to have sex with me. Any family whose father was known to be a pedophile would become an outcast from the community. It develops slowly, and victims often display no symptoms for years. Tap here to turn on desktop notifications to get the news sent straight to you. Nobody has doubted the sincerity or authenticity of my allegations against my abuser. I did not want him grabbing my ass at my wedding. Living with memories remembered or repressed and their psychological ramifications is no walk in the park.
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Merry Weirdmas Family gatherings are even stranger now. I heavily edited your longer letter as I know you fear being identified, but I have rarely read one like it. The way your mother treated you was totally wrong: What you endured was inhumane, abusive and horribly cruel. To have experienced what you did at such a young age was truly traumatic. And yet there you are in your letter, telling me about the good things in your life now, and asking about my own welfare.
To help me answer your question, I spoke to two professionals in child protection. We agreed that it depends what you want to achieve by making a complaint about your mother. I do not want to discourage you from doing so, but I also do not want you to suffer unnecessary further trauma. People do make complaints about historical childhood abuse and get resolution. Many feel validated and listened to, often for the first time. Past or current abuse is investigated by specialist, trained officers and you would be offered support.
There are various options to consider so you can make an informed choice that works for you. You could call CrimeStoppers anonymously to report what your mum did. Tom Squire, clinical manager and a former probation officer at the Lucy Faithfull Foundation LFF , a child protection charity dedicated to preventing child sexual abuse, said people can often find it helpful telling someone in an official capacity without having to say who they are.
Squire suggested you could also call Stop It Now a sister organisation to the LFF; and someone could talk you through what might happen if you report this to the police. I have listed below some organisations you could contact to talk it through with someone: Whatever you do, I want it to be about you now. I understand how strongly you feel about your mother having got away with it. Many abusers present a charming face to society but are very different behind closed doors.