Dark Desires

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But Dark Desires does rub up against an uncomfortable truth that began to emerge in the late s and early s, around the time her notebooks were originally written: Women were suddenly finding success in work and business, but were failing at love. Valenzuela could be a case study in Female Perversions, Louise Kaplan's groundbreaking Freudian study of this phenomenon. Women who felt powerful in their chosen professions were, in their love and sex lives, willfully subjugating themselves to their male partners. Luisa Valenzuela is the author of more than a dozen works of fiction and nonfiction, including Cambio de armas and Cola de lagartija.

Dalkey Archive Press hide caption. Told in fragmentary anecdotes, theoretical asides and excerpts from letters and journal entries, Valenzuela's book is the attempt of one woman to examine, understand and break out of this pattern. She wants to feel she's worthy of her career success, trying "to reach some kind of acceptance, some kind of profound recognition.

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Not of exterior recognition, the applause that's also implicit in that word," but something internal. In doing so, she might be able to accept that "the male of the species also has his little heart" and stop simply using them for sex, inspiration or a prop for her self-esteem. If this were a traditional memoir, Valenzuela would ride off into the sunset with one of the men in the book — Dieter, Pale Fire, Duck, Joe.

She has no pat answers, just a continuing quest to overcome doubts and bad habits. Dark Desires and the Others is a brave book, a vulgar book and a riveting read. It's the testimony of one woman trying to surrender the fight in the war between the sexes, but who remains unable to lay down her arms. Luisa Valenzuela, translated by Susan E. You'll think that I died, and something like that is indeed happening or has happened.

You can't tell anymore what's alive and what's dead, or rather, who's going around these worlds, seemingly dying. Remembering is like being left hanging from something that you don't have anymore — if you ever really had it — one reason to be more or less agglutinate, magnetic. Remembering here and now, in my house in Buenos Aires, as if I were at the top of a mountain, and even further, as if I were lying at the bottom of the sea, which is where these things tend to happen.

Sometimes yes and sometimes no. Sometimes the memories flow when it gets dark; they appear and they fade, they amaze us at the turn of a page and perhaps we should hurry to retain them. Perhaps we should offer more to memory, that form of madness.

I found a piece of paper. I found a writing pad — and I write and I write and I write. I'll write until the ink runs out and there's nothing left of what I care about to jot down. Here there is order, calm.

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I don't want to leave this house anymore. I don't want to be distracted. I prefer to keep seeing objects that I'm fond of, encouraging the winds of inspiration, getting up early and sometimes running through the park to buy something to eat or more ink. Cartridges of ink to write a bit, fire more shots, all made of words. And now — now that the phone isn't working — how I long to stay here shut in between these caressing walls! I feel so good facing myself, facing mountains that look like water, but which are really wool, mountains woven stitch by stitch, only suggested.

A small tapestry that will accompany me on my trip, though I no longer want to travel.

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The house is beautiful, I like each and every thing, and the cats are playing in the middle of the room and tralala tralala. I keep on in my singsong and can't get away from it. And again my doubts: To bathe or not to bathe? How I need the little securities of life, or should I say, how I'd like to have the larger ones!

I would like not to have to take the plane or the boat, not to climb once more into that enormous floating belly, to float in that endless amniotic fluid, the ocean — and go sailing peacefully toward other latitudes, writing my novels.

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I have to learn how to write during this trip, an errant writer so to speak — a roving writer. Further along the dates will have to be erased, but at the end of '78, the person I was then was getting ready to jump, knowing her absence will be a long one. She's been invited to be Writer in Residence at Columbia University for a semester, and that will be — she intuits already — the longest semester of her life.

She breathes in huge gulps of her city's air, the verb a lie at the time, because the air had become unbreathable. With vandal-like delight she is disemboweling her library. Some books will have to disappear — the word alone produces goose bumps — others are simply dismantled in order to preserve this story or that essay or those three chapters that she knows she'll need for her course, or that she wants to keep with her in spite of the weight limit on planes.

Get rid of everything to be able to leave as lightly as possible. She knows that if she stays in her own country, she won't write anymore.

She can't show her latest work to anyone. She's afraid of putting those readers in danger. She also has notebooks and notebooks — disheveled, awkward diaries with no continuity at all.

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From those she likewise vandalizes — or, in this case, rescues — some fragments that will later form the microstories of a volume titled precisely Libro que no muerde Book that Doesn't Bite. And it didn't, really, unless we say that irony has a bite. Those were certainly times that lent themselves to furious biting.

She did what she could with regard to the situation; she got involved and she wrote and later she wrote partly about her involvement. These pages however, only took in the shrapnel — shrapnel that was noted down in new and multiple foreign notebooks.

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So that all that's left is to write the good-bye bite:. Her loved one of the time, ex-loved one now because of his abandoning her when everything seemed to promise the opposite, reappears after almost a year of absence in order to declare his passion and his anguish and to confess his error. The woman I was then has one foot already in the stirrup and treats him with disdain, and when he desperately swears that he will never stop searching for her, and asks, using these exact words, "Now what do I do?

So that's where, in New York, and without realizing it, her notes about herself, about her efforts to become a woman, begin. The moment has come to say it, to become consistent. This is who I am and this is my truth, however heavily it weighs on me.

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The best way to be the protagonist of the story without being the protagonist is to be the author of the story. Having recently arrived in New York, an analyst whom I saw sporadically cursed me with the following:. I stopped seeing the analyst after that session, because I didn't think he could understand me, could understand that, for me, life and literature, love and literature, are the same.

What an enormous amount of time that was lost because of him. He took so much from her! I too like the fact that the stalkee is the narrator and not some over emphasizing person retelling the story. Thats how I feel about Nightmare Next Door. I cannot abide to the narrator's voice and refuse to watch the show.

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