Depression: Mein Weg in Gedichten Teil 1 (German Edition)

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Whether it is Easter, or not. Even in my everyday life, it is noticeable. Anyone who knows me more closely, knows that I have more than enough reasons to be grumpy. But I do not care. I can not prove it. At least not according to scientific standards. I do not have to. What do I do with Easter eggs, and Easter bunnies from the supermarket? It is the only useful, what you can do with the stuff.

He opened for us the way to God the Father and to eternal life! Aber darauf hab ich keinen Bock! Verraten von einem seiner engsten Vertrauten. Gehasst von der geistigen Elite seines Volkes. Warum freue ich mich? Ich erfreue mich an der Tatsache, dass er nicht in der Grabkammer liegen geblieben ist, in die man ihn gepackt hatte.

Er ist auferstanden von den Toten! ER lebt heute noch. Egal ob Ostern ist, oder eben nicht. Aber es ist mir egal. Das kann ich nicht beweisen. Muss ich auch nicht. Ist das einzig Sinnige, was man mit dem Zeug machen kann. December 20th , or 4th of Advent, is my 12th 2nd Birthday. It is almost 12 years now that I have made Jesus Christ Hebrew: Yeshua Hamashiach the Lord of my life. I have been stuck in depression for almost 12 years then. Thoughts of committing suicide were a regular thing for years. Watching the movie let to reading the Bible. Reading the Bible let to wanting to know the author.

Getting to know HIM let to a new life. I consider it to be the first wonder of my new life that ALL suicidal thoughts were blown away the same instant, I gave my life to Jesus. Eventually I started to enjoy life again. I even started to LIKE myself again. About a year ago wonder number two occurred: I actually was able to LOVE myself again. Rather early in my walk with Jesus I discovered that another verse is very true: I know them and they follow my call.

Once in a while I meet people who even were in full-time ministry for years, but never experienced anything supernatural and hardly can say they have a relationship with Jesus. Often these people are desperate. It is a beautiful site to see these people catching hope and joy again. In order to be set free to serve others, I had to pay a price.

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I had to step down from a full-time job in the elevator industry to a part-time job about three and a half years ago, which allows me to not having to go into office every Friday. Not one moment ever since did I regret it. Even my none-believing manager says that I have lightened up significantly and became at ease with myself. Have it, know about it. Already heard of it. I can also feel love towards others. Sometimes even for myself. But where can I find hope in my life? There are everyday things I am having hope for.

I am having hope that the ICE runs on time. I am even having hope that next week I would not need to stay at the office beyond 5 p. When it comes to the things that are really a burden — and I mean that literally — then I had lost hope. Lost the hope my Heavenly Father is interested in these things and wants to help me. What I mean by that exactly? Those who know me closer, know that I have for a very long time to deal with a significant overweight. In a phase of hope a the equivalent of a small people vanished.

Now, when so much weight could disappear in a hopeful time, so one should assume that this is enough motivation to persevere. How then could all hope left me so easily? Three years ago, I had a bad accident and afterwards could crawl along. It took almost a year before I could walk straight again. It was exhausting and robbed me of a lot of spiritual strength. Somehow, I came back to strength.

Even bought an extra sustainable bicycle. Enthusiastically I rode to work and back twice a week. I felt good and motivated. Then my bike was stolen. Motivation and power disappeared together with the bike.

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The next year, I bought a new bike. Only once I drove it to work and back home. A few days later I wanted to buy something in a supermarket on the way home, about two bus stops from home. When I got out of the seat at the end of the bus, I already knew, there was something fishy. No sooner had I put the left foot first on the sidewalk, all muscles through the entire left leg popped. With last strength I dragged myself to the bench at the bus stop.

My friend Karl had been home from work — thank God — and picked me up with his car. The next day I went to the doctor. He sent me for venous ultrasound, because he wanted to rule out thrombosis. In spirit, I rejected this thrombosis. Nevertheless, anxiety and panic rose hugely in my heart. Afraid to end up in a wheelchair. I was glad that the doctors could find nothing critical while scanning. But it did not change a thing, I was still afraid. In the next twelve months it felt like the would not get any better.

Toward the end, the pain was so bad that I no longer managed going to work without painkillers. On many days after work it was so bad, that I took a taxi home, instead going by subway and bus. Meanwhile, there are taxi drivers, whom I no longer have to tell where I want to go to. Vermeidung depressiver Erkrankungen Source: Sie sind nicht festgelegt in der Reihenfolge des Auftretens. Akzeptieren, aushalten, nicht widersprechen 2. Zorn , Wut Warum ausgerechnet ich, warum nicht die anderen? In Zukunft werde ich auch alles anders machen.

Depression Das bringt alles sowieso nichts mehr Akzeptanz , Zustimmung Wenn es sein muss, dann ja. David Hawkins , Dr. Juli Siehe auch: Es freut mich nichts. Alles hat sein Gewicht verloren. Ich habe eigentlich kein Heim, keine Heimat, kann nicht recht Wurzel fassen.

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Du kannst mich ja verstehen — wahrscheinlich klingt das alles riesig banal. Ich glaube nicht, dass ich noch lange leben werde. Die Sehnsucht nach Tilly ist mein inneres Brot, von dem ich lebe. Im Lager dachte man, am Tiefstpunkt angelangt zu sein: Die verkannte Krankheit , S.

I am certain that the LSD experience has helped me very much. I find myself with a heightened color perception and an appreciation of beauty almost destroyed by my years of depression […]. The sensation that the partition between "here" and "there" has become very thin is constantly with me. I don't like standing near the edge of a platform when an express train is passing through. I like to stand right back and if possible get a pillar between me and the train. I don't like to stand by the side of a ship and look down into the water.

A second's action would end everything. A few drops of desparation. If I can't be loved, I'll find a way to be admired.

Article by Sue Chance, M. Are you're happy at 80? Yeah, i am happy at I can't stand so much happiness. And sometimes — maybe one day at the week — I'll become depressed. But the rest of the time, especially if I'm writing poetry, I'm never depressed. Depression comes up from underneath. It just grabs you. It is an entity of its own. We are built for depression in a way because the nafs [i. It wants us to pull back inside. TV, Reggio Emilia, March , minute 4: It's amazing how it cheers one up to shred oranges and scrub the floor!

Lawrence English literary critic, playwright, essayist, poet, novelist, James T. Boulton, editor, The Letters of D. Lawrence , Volume I, , S. Of course I was interested and discovered that, for the first time for many years, I had been idle without being ill. Now and again, the word slips out, but I hate it. That word is too exciting, too literary, too interesting in its connotations, to convey the boredom, the slowness, the dreariness, the dampness of depression. I've treated my own depression for many years with exercise and meditation, and I've found that to be a tremendous help.

Darkness Visible: A Memoir of Madness

For four decades I have sat in shrinks' offices and talked about my wish to die the way other people talk about their wish to find a love. And I think I'm probably the most cheerful man around. I don't consider myself a pessimist at all. I think of a pessimist as someone who is waiting for it to rain. And I feel completely soaked to the skin. I've always been free from hope. It's never been one of my great solaces. I feel that more and more we're invited to make ourselves strong and cheerful.

No one could solve all the problems the world appears to hold. They seem to be on so many levels, in such varying forms and with such varied content, that they confront you with an impossible situation. Dismay and depression are inevitable as you regard them. New interests and tendencies appear which have hitherto received no attention, or there is a sudden change of personality a so-called mutation of character.

During the incubation period of such a change we can often observe a loss of conscious energy: The lowering of energy can be seen most clearly before the onset of certain psychoses and also in the empty stillness which precedes creative work. At the beginning of an analysis there is often a depressed state of resignation-life has no meaning, there is no feeling of being in life.

An exaggerated state can develop into complete lameness. Quite young people give the impression of having the resignation of a bitter old man or woman. When you dig into such a black mood you find that behind it there is overwhelming greed — for being loved, for being very rich, for having the right partner, for being the top dog, etc. Behind such a melancholic resignation you will often discover in the darkness a recurring theme which makes things very difficult, namely if you give such people one bit of hope, the lion opens its mouth and you have to withdraw, and then they put the lid on again, and so it goes on, back and forth.

Had he been a stable and equable man, he could never have inspired the nation. In , when all the odds were against Britain, a leader of sober judgment might well have concluded that we were finished. May If we fail, then the whole world will sink into the abyss of a new Dark Age, made more sinister, and perhaps more protracted, by the lights of perverted science. Henry David Thoreau US American historian, philosopher, leading transcendentalist, naturalist, abolitionist, surveyor, tax resister, development critic, poet, author, Walden, Or, Life in the Woods , walden1a.

In six decades, not a single study has proven [the theses of chemical imbalance in the brain]. It is an epigenetic syndrome. In , a study published in Science suggested that those with genetic variation in their serotonin transporter were three times more likely to be depressed. But six years later this idea was wiped out by a meta-analysis of 14, patients published in the Journal of the American Medical Association that denied such an association.

Irregularities in the body can start far away from the brain and are not associated with the simplistic model of so-called 'chemical imbalances'. A psychoneuroimmunological response to adversity rather than genetic disease. Shame causes inflammation, and many depressed patients live in shame. Honor consciousness has an anti-inflammatory component. Depression erodes honorable awareness by devaluing self. There are effective ways of treating most depressions without medication and without labeling it as disease.

Mario Martinez, PsyD , Uruguaian clinical neuropsychologist, contemplative psychologist, psycho-neuroimmunologist, author, Facebook comment , Video interview with Jaak Panksepp, Ph. When we feel restless, bored, or empty despite an outer life filled with riches, the unlived life is asking for us to engage. To not do this work will leave us depleted and despondent, with a nagging sense of ennui or failure.

As you may have already discovered, doing or acquiring more does not quell your unease or dissatisfaction. Neither will "meditating on the light " or attempting to rise above the sufferings of earthly existence. Only awareness of your shadow qualities can help you to find an appropriate place for your unredeemed darkness and thereby create a more satisfying experience. To not do this work is to remain trapped in the loneliness , anxiety , and dualistic limits of the ego instead of awakening to your higher calling. Video presentation by Stuart Brown, M. When did you stop dancing? When did you stop singing?

When did you stop being enchanted by stories? When did you stop finding comfort in the sweet territory of silence? Where we have stopped dancing, singing, being enchanted by stories, or finding comfort in silence is where we have experience the loss of soul. Dancing, singing, storytelling, and silence are the four universal healing salves. February , HarperOne, Literary quotes It seems to me that almost all our sadnesses are moments of tension , which we feel as paralysis because we no longer hear our astonished emotions living.

Because we are alone with the unfamiliar presence that has entered us; because everything we trust and are used to is for a moment taken away from us; because we stand in the midst of a transition where we cannot remain standing. That is why the sadness passes: And we don't know what it was. We could easily be made to believe that nothing happened, and yet we have changed, as a house that a guest has entered changes. We can't say who has come, perhaps we will never know, but many signs indicate that the future enters us in this way in order to be transformed in us, long before it happens.

And that is why it is so important to be solitary and attentive when one is sad: The quieter we are, the more patient and open we are in our sadnesses, the more deeply and serenely the new presence can enter us, and the more we can make it our own, the more it becomes our fate. In her dark womb we did not know our mother's face; from the prison of her flesh we come into the unspeakable and incommunicable prison of this earth. Which of us has known his brother? Which of us has looked into his father's heart? Which of us has not remained forever prison-pent? Which of us is not forever a stranger and alone?

O waste of loss, in the hot mazes, lost, among bright stars on this most weary unbright cinder, lost! Remembering speechlessly we seek the great forgotten language, the lost lane-end into heaven, a stone, a leaf, an unfound door. O lost, and by the wind grieved, ghost, come back again. Truth , January And if you do all three you will recover.

Everybody recovers if they do all three. September — Radio interview September 23 , YouTube film, minute Conclusion Having to take responsibility for yourself can seem like a tremendous disadvantage, but there is a great advantage. If you don't understand how you created your depression, then by learning more about yourself you can uncreate it.

In the same way many people diagnosed schizophrenic have recovered by coming to understand themselves. Nobody has a happy childhood! Only 'good ' [good according to one's family's definition of "good", guilt-ridden] people get depressed. Actually, what's falling apart are our ideas, but it feels like yourself falling apart. And that's utterly, utterly terrifying. It comes about the way how we see ourselves in the world. It feels like falling apart.

Geschichten, Gedichte, Meinungen, …

Im Mittelpunkt gerade der von Psychologen verfassten Analysen stehen die zahlreichen Metaphern , mit denen Darkness Visible die Symptome des Leidens anschaulich macht. Sie wurde erst im Doch handelt es sich nicht um einen unmittelbaren identifizierbaren Schmerz wie etwa bei einem Knochenbruch. Januar nicht aus dem Kopf gehen: Ach, wer heilet die Schmerzen Des, dem Balsam zu Gift ward? Es sei auch noch einsamer: Scheinbar im Widerspruch dazu beschreibt Styron sein eigenes literarisches Werk als geradezu hellsichtig: Suizidenten wie Primo Levi sei daher ebenso wenig ein Vorwurf zu machen wie einem Krebsleidenden.

Sontag trat darin Versuchen entgegen, die Krankheit insbesondere Krebs mit dem Kranken gleichzusetzen.

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